30 Days of Lists: Day 29

Things I Am Afraid Of

1. Being hit by a car
2. Spiders (not Daddy Long Legs or little ones, just big ones, or ones with thick legs, or black widows)
3. Being alone (not alone as in alone in my room...like utterly alone, stranded, as in no one left but me)
4. Losing someone I love
5. Seeing something awful I can't get out of my head, be it something fake on a television show or an article online
   
6. Drowning
7. Being a failure (not failing in & of itself)
8. Being the butt end of a mean joke (ala She's All That)

There are a lot of questions, what-ifs and prayers running through my head at the moment. Right about now I should be settled in a hotel room near UCSF, eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich while my sister and aunt prepare for the transplant on Thursday. Pray. Pray hard. If all has gone well with my aunt receiving a cath Wednesday morning, all six of us making the trip to SF should be there.